Saturday, 19 December 2015


The holidays are here. I can never pinpoint the exact moment where the feelings of warmth creep into my bones but this year I think it has come with the snow. Today it is snowing, not like huge flakes that are staying but the first snow I've seen at home all year.

The house is decorated presents bought, tree up and a house smelling of food. Im so happy and content to be spending this holiday season with my family. It's going to be two years before I spend it at home with them so I will cherish this time as it won't be the same.

Happy holidays for what ever you celebrate, or don't. Just enjoy the wonders of the last few weeks of 2015 and have some eggnog. (unless you don't like it then have some warm beverage, if you don't like those drink water. If not water just enjoy your existence because it is awesome.)

Thursday, 3 December 2015

A month and a bit

So I have 50 days until I leave. That's not very many. While I am excited and counting down,  I am also beginning to grasp that I have no idea what the next year hold. I suppose you never really know but I don't have a plan.

While the prospect of just going with the flow has always seemed so enticing, I'm a planner. I like to have list and clear goals. The goal is to get to New Zealand, while until I am physically on the plane there is nothing else that I can do but wait. Waiting means stopping and reflecting, Which if your a planner like my self it usually means reflect and modify the plan while you wait. I can't do that because after arriving there is no plan other then don't starve and finding a place to sleep.

I think it should be liberating, It's not I have recently been held hostage by my emotions. I will get through this and that's awesome but for right now In my head I'm running around in circles flapping my arms going I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM DOING WEEEEEEEEEEE.

I suppose it should be similar to what Peggy always says fake it til you make it or at least look busy.